I wrote this poem in October of 2021.
Bleak and rainy days
used to make me sad
and squeeze the life out of me
But now
I think of all the
sunshines and rainbows
in my life
three souls I gave birth to
the friends who accept me
my parents who continue
to be loving and nurturing
my coworkers whom I’ve
Shared a pandemic war with
But mostly, the new version
of myself who might feel
despair and sadness on some
days but keeps going
This new version
that loves herself fully
for once is enough
Life on the BPD 
if i get the chance when it rains, i like to get high and watch a movie. it’s a total disappearing act, a break from my self which can drive me crazy with incessant thinking. I feel your gratitude in this poem and the ending is very satisfying – to love oneself because dammit, all of our stories, all the ups and downs are interesting.
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