My bra is the milkshake that brings men to my playground It gives me the cleavage that makes them feel like theyβre in love Theyβll claim it’s my words or my eyes they’re in love with , but letβs not kid ourselves Itβs really my majestic breasts that pop out with their own personalities they fuel their many exotic and erotic fantasies
my oldest son moved out in same week my youngest started high school people keep asking me how I am and honestly I donβt know yet all I know is there a major hole that keeps getting bigger and bigger and I call it partial empty nest syndrome
The moon follows me on my drive home after open mic I try to take this as a good omen because lately I hold on to the darkness within let it fill me up until I ease into insanity gotta grasp at anything that looks like light otherwise my descent into madness never stops
heartbreak brings up raging hello kitty energy…hahaha
My love data tells me I shouldnβt try again because every time I crash and burn and cause trauma and drama because every time it ends, I get hateful and want revenge and While I do appreciate the poetry that comes after every broken relationship I donβt think I can withstand the heartbreak and devastation the next time it ends
donβt judge others for the life you havenβt lived- not everyone has had the same privileges or self awareness as you some of us hardly had time to process one trauma before facing the next one and unhealthy coping mechanisms were placed itβs how a lot of us learned to live our lives with our emotional gloves and armor always ready
the rocking chair tells a story about the white working class for the past 60 years from grandfather to father to sons from the greatest generation to the boomer generation to the boomer generation and skipped all the way to the zoomer and alpha generation (side note: the boomer knocked up a pretty little millennial thing in his late 40βs)
the rocking chair has seen the first man on the moon to the alpha losing his shit when tik tok went dark for several hours
the rocking chair tells a story of the white working class from breaking the generation curse of illiteracy to educational achievements from factory days to caseworker days to bolton hall days
the rocking chair holds the dreams, the hopes, the struggles of 4 generations of the white working class
sometimes I think my sins are the most interesting things about me Perhaps, thatβs why I worship them and keep making poems out of them Especially when I start to lose faith in myself especially when I start lose faith in myself and the universe and fill myself up with self hate and self loathing to crash out fantastically with pen and paper and write masterpieces
Kam Highway would see many changes in our family three teenagers in one house, our parents were saints at first we lived in abject poverty trying to find change in the secondhand couch for ramen or popcorn chicken or anything to put food in our tummies this apartment saw the awkwardness of my adolescence saw my brother almost fall into the wrong crowd saw my sister fall in and out of love until she finally landed her first husband next door and we had a pizzeria next door and also the interesting neighbors like the marine next door who beat his unfaithful wife or Tipper the stripper who was in a toxic relationship with the landlordβs son their song was Kiss and Say Goodbye by the Manhattans and the fun thanksgivings with all of the neighbors
my childhood was not easy and at times full of chaos good to inspire my creativity, one where I never needed much imagination since real life served up a lot of telenovela energy from toxic family dynamics to immigrant trauma to the ghetto melrose place in hawaii my childhood felt like a constant barrage of episodes where the adults couldnβt keep it together
Iβm paid less than everyone according to the statistics and itβs simply because of my ethnicity and gender at times I get mad about this but then Iβm like, it is what it is and wonβt change in the near future instead I continue to work hard for my and my kids betterment and try my best to live out my immigrant dream
your lips on mine taste like happiness on steroids is this what they call joy is this what they call euphoria are you the happy ending Iβve searching for since the age of 15 are you the reason that I want to burn down every poem inspired by lovers that arenβt yo
one last hit before we have to call it quits before we have to move on to new love stories before we have to grow up and forget our Alice and Peter personas and try to find something mature, something healthy, something long lasting
I was supposed to have been born in Cuzco but drama kept me away until I was two cusco saw me walk for the first time cusco saw me blossom with the attention and affection of my family and everyone else I learned to be happy with the new freedom my legs gave me but one day that changed when I was four when the baby sitter hurt me -hurt me for being spoiled hurt me for having la tez clara and she gave me a phobia of water and my resilience created an imaginary friend Calinchia to help me face and process what happened to me and eventually blocked my trauma
As a child I naively thought america was the land of the free itβs the greatest myth sold to everyone especially to immigrants as an adult, I found out the truth American is the land of the free- but you have to meet certain conditions 1)you have to be white 2)you have to christian 3)you have to be male and now that I found out about the conditional freedom of America Iβm no longer shocked by its many atrocities