I wrote this poem in September of 2025.

Iβm an expert at navigating the gray and vague trying to romanticize
and make fires out of the smallest of sparks
deluding myself into thinking if I stick around long enough
Heβll realize Iβm the one
I wrote this poem in September of 2021.

I long to run free in a world free from prejudice and pride
I long to run free in a world free from judgment and ignorance
I long to run free in a world that accepts people like me
I long to run free in a world where Iβm not hypervigilant
about toning myself down
I wrote this poem in September of 2019 in response to El Paso Walmart Shooting on August 3rd of 2019. Here is a link to it : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2019_El_Paso_Walmart_shooting

he came for my people
followed the rhetoric of our hate fueled president
men, women, children killed in cold blood
because they were the wrong race, the wrong color
spoke the wrong language
he came for βUSβ
the so-called invaders
him at just 21 years old filled with hatred from head to toe
brainwashed by white supremacy
twenty two lives taken as a consequence of a monstrous ideology
twenty two families who will forever grieve and mourn
the neverending sorrow loss of their loved ones taken too soon
twenty two families with an infinity of questions and no real answers
and as usual the useless thoughts and prayers come,
and the law makers are the worst,
making empty promises to fight this American epidemic
but after a few days, they will forget like everyone else
itβs no longer a question of why this happened
ttβs become a question of when will be the next time
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

My jealousy is green and monstrous-
Its big and dramatic
Itβs almost epic and iβm like dammit
I wish I wasnβt like this
but maybe itβs time to accept it
itβs not that Iβm toxic
Or that something is wrong with me
I just need a lover who only has eyes for me,
who doesnβt think about other options
when heβs with me
whoβs so obsessed with me,
Iβm like the air he needs to breathe
in order to live
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

I made promises to myself after your departure-
I promise to be completely myself for next love candidate-
No matter how crazy that may look like-
I promise to show him my prose and poetry-
even if it opens a door to hurtful truths
he deserves to know my past if he wants to be part of my present
and form a part of my future-
I promise to not place him on a pedestal
Iβll look for his humanity, truth, and accept him for who he is
and no matter how much I love him-
I wonβt accommodate to him or compromise my integrity
Heβll have to learn to live with and love the strong woman I am today
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

the shelf of my bookcase breaks, and my poetry notebooks fall
every single one of my love stories scattered on the floor
Failure after failure
Were any of them worth the effort?
Was the experience worth the suffering?
Maybe it was for the inspiration behind my prose and poetry
and the growth Iβve had
Still, that doesnβt seem like an adequate answer
I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

Back to black blast from my car radio as I drive aimlessly in the rain
I have a boyfriend but I still feel alone
It turns out that being in a relationship isnβt the cure for my loneliness after all
Some people will say itβs the long distance, others will say itβs how I still keep my guard up
I think itβs a mixture of both and how I have a tendency to fuck up in love
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

I breathe grief in, I exhale grief out
my pain needs a way out
because despair and sorrow fill up my lungs
and anger sits at the bottom of my stomach
and Iβm tired of living like this
a life full of emotional intensity
And supposedly thereβs a cure for it
with therapy and radical acceptance
but how do I accept that every man
whoβs ever professed his love to me
always leaves
Will my romantic misfortune one day end?
or am I destined to repeat the same story
of abandonment
over and over again?
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

Letβs go to war with ourselves
and speak our truth and heal unprocessed trauma within
and face our fear and insecurities
weβll walk out with confidence and feel empowered
Weβll leave with versions of ourselves ready
to reach our full potential and ready to love
I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

I need to head back to the gym before my algorithm notices
and starts sending me ads about BBLs and Ozempic
I need to head back to the gym and make it part of my weekly routine
instead of constantly standing still
I need to head back to the gym, I need those endorphins now more
than ever as another financial crises looms over me
and I donβt know how to get under it
give me 45 minutes at the gym to clear my head
strategize about my next to make sure my family
doesnβt fall into poverty

How do you deal with uncertainty?
