The world seems to be moving awfully swift these days and I can only seem to stand still against a wall that wonβt move I can only seem to be the hanged man in the tarot with an inertia that traps me into a hell of my own making
If you had a time machine and could send just one message to your past self, what would it say?
Me in October of 2022My poetry notebooks in 2022
To myself in 2022,
As I sit here in 2026 with the news of the 6th poetry acceptance, I’ll just tell you to never stop writing, never stop being yourself,Β never stop chasing your dreams and sharing your poetry.Β There is a place in the worldΒ for your simple verses and stanzas. There is community to be found online and locally. There will come a day like today that the path you chose as a writer, storyteller,Β and poet will one day be worth it. π₯³π₯³π₯³
The last tarot card I pull said everything is working in my favor and yet here I am knee deep in my depression as my world is full of so many changes itβs hard for me to keep up with and I feel like I’m playing emotional parkour at double time. not fully processing one transition before facing the next and I donβt remember whenβs the last time Iβve been to the gym itβs to suffice to say, Iβve stopped caring about how much weight Iβve gained but I should considering I donβt have money for new clothes since Iβm as broke as a college student who buys ramen by the bulk for sustenance on most days but here my tarot say there are better days to come and lately Iβm impatient and shake my fists at the sky yelling βwhenβ
I’d love to have dinner with Isabel Allende. I’m absolutely fascinated with her and love all of her books I’ve read so far. I’d like to pick her brain about her creative process and get writing advice from her. I have watched many of her interviews and a couple of Ted talks from her but I think being to talk to her in person would be so much better. Then again, I might fangirl too hard and go mute. π³πͺ
Iβve tried to keep my life private but I have a talent for oversharing Especially when Iβm anxious Especially when Iβm drunk and youβll think itβs charming at first Until one day I explode and then youβll say goodbye And Iβll get super salty, cry, and write
My bra is the milkshake that brings men to my playground It gives me the cleavage that makes them feel like theyβre in love Theyβll claim it’s my words or my eyes they’re in love with , but letβs not kid ourselves Itβs really my majestic breasts that pop out with their own personalities they fuel their many exotic and erotic fantasies
my oldest son moved out in same week my youngest started high school people keep asking me how I am and honestly I donβt know yet all I know is there a major hole that keeps getting bigger and bigger and I call it partial empty nest syndrome
Sex is a work of art if you are in love- Two bodies entwined in a collaborative rhythm Two bodies matching energies that derive a great pleasure It presents a beautiful picture of ecstasy Anything else is just a mediocre sketch
The moon follows me on my drive home after open mic I try to take this as a good omen because lately I hold on to the darkness within let it fill me up until I ease into insanity gotta grasp at anything that looks like light otherwise my descent into madness never stops
heartbreak brings up raging hello kitty energy…hahaha
My love data tells me I shouldnβt try again because every time I crash and burn and cause trauma and drama because every time it ends, I get hateful and want revenge and While I do appreciate the poetry that comes after every broken relationship I donβt think I can withstand the heartbreak and devastation the next time it ends
When I think of the moon, I always think of your silhouette against it maybe it has to do with the many nights spent fighting in your back patio maybe it has to do with nostalgia catching up to me in the heat of august in the midst of many transitions