poetry: alien

I wrote this poem in March of 2021.

feeling my otherness feels like a full time job
not belonging to here or there
constantly in limbo wondering โ€œwhere is my home?
they hate me here, they hate me there
I don’t belong anywhere but I remain here
it’s the only home I’ve ever known
America
home of the free, home of the brave
but never my HOME!

poetry: sentencing

I wrote this poem in March of 2025.

this book is a mindfuck

flickering ashes, among them, the brideโ€™s dress
dreams of a family
dreams of a white picket fence all went up in smoke
jilted and pregnant
bride cries on the floor, waiting for the sentencing
from her parents
now that her lover jilted her
and couldnโ€™t make an honest woman out of her

poetry: cesspool

I wrote this poem in March of 2019.

Feeling hopeless in a cesspool of a world
That will never accept you
-for your skin color
-for your accent
-for your nationality
-for your religion or lack of one
-for your independent thought
Anything that doesnโ€™t fit the image
of white and Christian is blasphemous
To be an โ€œotherโ€ is to carry the weight of racism,
discrimination, xenophobia
All the phobias on your already burdened shoulders
So they try to kill us with actual guns Or
metaphorical ones of insults,rejections or looks of disgust.

poetry: soldier

I wrote this poem in February of 2023.

Iโ€™m soldier of love
too lost battles for me to count and recount
how many times Iโ€™ve had to stitch my heart over and over again
from the many knives past lovers have stabbed me with
with the last one, I almost lost all hope for love
It made me lose my sanity and almost gave me PTSD
Still the romantic in me refused to die
and resurfaced this year
Told me, โ€œthis time it will be different, this time you have self respect
and youโ€™ll be choosy over whoโ€™s worthy of your love energyโ€

poetry: second chance

I wrote this poem in February of 2025.

raindrops serendipiciously hit the window panes of our room
and the wind sings a song everyone can hear
I lay on your chest in our bed in awe of what just happened
caught lovestruck with a smile of love
thankful for this second chance at marriage
for so long I thought I was doomed to be alone
never expected to find you
especially the way you showed up in my life
and now there isnโ€™t a space between us
and you look at me with goofy smile of yours
the one that inspires the poet in me and say
โ€œwe need to make up for lost timeโ€

poetry: you’re so mature for your age

I wrote this poem in February of 2023.

wish I knew this at 19

Yโ€™all should have known better than to fuck with me
trying me on while I was still finding my footing as a woman
to lust after me because of my curves and pretty face
Never thinking my brain was still developing
Never weighing the consequences of how your selfish ways
would hurt me
Instead I was just fodder for your game of lust-
and you became inspiration for stories and poems about trauma
I still wonder who I would turned out to be-
if only you two would have left me alone

poetry: between

I wrote this poem in February of 2025.

me at open mic in February

between heartbeats and honeysuckle, they fell in love
this time, it was different for both of them
this time it didnโ€™t take much to see that both of them
Wanted to exchange I dos
this time they believed in forever and happily ever after

poetry: special

I wrote this poem in February of 2025.

me on my birthday

With a fiery madness, she survived and made it out alive
tragedy after tragedy, diagnosis after diagnosis
she questioned how or why she did it
Many stood astonished at how she kept herself together
and composed even as her life and her body fell apart
but after a while it was easy for her to triumph
after every devastating plot twist
she was something else
a mixture of manic pixie girl and goddess
she was special

poesia: desgracia

escribi este poema en febrero del 2023.

foto de mujer amargada en feb 2023

la desgracia me desgasta y casi me mata
porque amo en una forma inmensa y pura
y cuando el amor me abandona quiero morir
y digo, esta รบltima desgracia se siente como un terremoto catastrรณfico
y prefiero cortarme mis venas que sentir esto denuevo

poetry: scattered memories

I wrote this poem in February of 2025.

me with my youngest self

scattered memories of you and I are tossed into the bonfire
pictures, poems, and letters never sent burn and burn
and I watch understanding this is our closure
and our chapter is finally closed
and I needed the bonfire and a final curtain call
on an early February night to put us behind

poetry: dangerous

I wrote this poem in February of 2023.

this is a dangerous road Iโ€™m traveling on
smiling at your messages
Creating a playlist inspired by you
romanticizing every interaction we have
liking every single one of your posts
Wondering if youโ€™re safe enough
To get to know you
beyond the walls of this simple friendship

poetry: pleas

I wrote this poem in February of 2025.

my pleas for love fall on the deaf ears of the universe
I scoff and get angry with her
Wondering whatโ€™s left to heal
whatโ€™s left for closure
whatโ€™s wrong with me that I need to fix in order
to attract someone to love for the crazy, creative
and complex woman that I am