Mi corazón se rehúsa a dejarte no importa que duro lo intento no importa con quien estoy para escapar los pensamientos de ti es inmoral que te ame pero mi corazón es demasiado salvaje para escuchar logica y razon te quiere a ti y solo a ti
I’m constantly shunned from men who profess their love when I show up feral and without a filter They’ll call me their princess until I show them my wild They always love me beautiful and submissive and they leave when I get assertive and subversive They feel deceived when they fall for a polite princess And somehow end up with an amazon Queen Maybe it’s the Incan in me who can’t reign it in They say, “you’re too much, you’re too crazy” Is there a man out there who can handle my duality?
Sola, ella realiza su potencial Sola, ella conoce su poder Sola, ella entiende que siempre fue suficiente y después de tantas desilusiones amorosas ella está agotada y prefiere su soledad que le da libertad y paz
I’m 18 and walking across the football stadium to receive my diploma the one I almost didn’t get, my parents and I breathe a sigh of relief
I’m 24 and I hold my baby boy in my arms, it’s love at first sight he’s the best birthday present and I’m humbled
I’m 28 and I’m graduating from college,it’s been a an arduous journey to get here but I make it and my dad cries and tells me how proud he is of me
I’m 30 and holding my third baby boy, he’s my rainbow after the worst storm everyone in my family holds him and there is an overflow of love
I’m 36 and my oldest son is walking across the gymnasion to receive his diploma I cry with elation and pride, my heart is filled with pride and joy for him
me estoy hundiendo en tu magia es porque eres algo prohibido para mi es porque eres malo para mi Siempre me enamoro de lo que será mi perdición y mi autodestrucción
I forgive myself at 15 for crying over an idiot who was never worth my time and energy but he did spark my poetic voice
I forgive myself at 20 for writing more than 50 poems about a 6 week relationship in 2001 but it did make for some hilarious blog content in 2021
I forgive myself at 25 for not fighting harder for my dreams and for swallowing my anger and angst for the comfort of others but that year I became a playwright
I forgive myself at 30 for drowning the writer in me as I lost myself in my roles as wife and mother but that year I launched my blog
I forgive myself at 35 for swallowing a bottle of xanax because I felt like a failure as wife, mother, and worker but the dark poetry from that time is some of my best
I forgive myself at 40 for wanting to die for two weeks in July after being discarded by the “supposed” love of my life but that summer I found the confidence to call myself a writer
My heart sings when you’re near me, people tell me its infatuation that I fall too fast for the wrong men but they’re wrong, so wrong What I feel is love
Stuck in between Spanish and English is a bilingual nightmare constantly switching between languages gives me a lifelong jaqueca and at times I don’t get it right it’s switching between two identities Latina or American it gets hard and confusing at times but it’s who I am Hablo con mamá en Español I speak to my sons in English Hablo con los pacientes en Español I speak to my coworkers in English and to code switch parece una comedia I’m told that I’m fun and loud en Español pero soy profesional y reservada in English eventually I learn to meld my American and Latina personalities and I find my most authentic bilingual and bicultural identity
porque no te armas de valor y le dices la verdad en vez de correr de tus sentimientos con infidelidad y borracheras estas haciendo dano a ti y a ella pronto tu conciencia te devorara no te estoy juzgando, estoy preocupado por ti la gente está empezando con sus chismes hasta piensan que soy la causa de ti infidelidad y mientras me río de sus chismes nuestra colega me contó la verdad que ella es cómplice en tu infidelidad y la mirada en su cara me dijo todo ella está desesperadamente enamorada esto es un juego de amor peligroso que estás jugando donde tres personas se van a quemar