I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

I believe a good poem
will move you in such a way
it will evoke some emotion in you
I believe a great poem
will rip you apart, punch you in the gut
and render you completely speechless
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

I made promises to myself after your departure-
I promise to be completely myself for next love candidate-
No matter how crazy that may look like-
I promise to show him my prose and poetry-
even if it opens a door to hurtful truths
he deserves to know my past if he wants to be part of my present
and form a part of my future-
I promise to not place him on a pedestal
Iβll look for his humanity, truth, and accept him for who he is
and no matter how much I love him-
I wonβt accommodate to him or compromise my integrity
Heβll have to learn to live with and love the strong woman I am today
I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

Back to black blast from my car radio as I drive aimlessly in the rain
I have a boyfriend but I still feel alone
It turns out that being in a relationship isnβt the cure for my loneliness after all
Some people will say itβs the long distance, others will say itβs how I still keep my guard up
I think itβs a mixture of both and how I have a tendency to fuck up in love
I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

I need to head back to the gym before my algorithm notices
and starts sending me ads about BBLs and Ozempic
I need to head back to the gym and make it part of my weekly routine
instead of constantly standing still
I need to head back to the gym, I need those endorphins now more
than ever as another financial crises looms over me
and I donβt know how to get under it
give me 45 minutes at the gym to clear my head
strategize about my next to make sure my family
doesnβt fall into poverty
I wrote this poem in August of 2025.

The last tarot card I pull said everything is working in my favor
and yet here I am knee deep in my depression as my world is full of so many changes
itβs hard for me to keep up with
and I feel like I’m playing emotional parkour at double time. not fully processing one
transition before facing the next
and I donβt remember whenβs the last time Iβve been to the gym
itβs to suffice to say, Iβve stopped caring about how much weight Iβve gained
but I should considering I donβt have money for new clothes since Iβm as broke
as a college student who buys ramen by the bulk for sustenance on most days
but here my tarot say there are better days to come
and lately Iβm impatient and shake my fists at the sky yelling βwhenβ
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

Iβve tried to keep my life private but I have a talent for oversharing
Especially when Iβm anxious
Especially when Iβm drunk and youβll think itβs charming at first
Until one day I explode and then youβll say goodbye
And Iβll get super salty, cry, and write
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

My bra is the milkshake that brings men to my playground
It gives me the cleavage that makes them feel like theyβre in love
Theyβll claim it’s my words or my eyes they’re in love with , but letβs not kid ourselves
Itβs really my majestic breasts that pop out with their own personalities
they fuel their many exotic and erotic fantasies
I wrote this poem in August of 2020.

I met you on a cold January night at the IHOP
across your apartment complex
As I was eating up my loneliness
with scrambled eggs and coffee
I hoped you couldnβt see remnants
of tears that had fallen before you came
and you sat across from me
and as we awkwardly made conversation
I wondered if you would be the one
to breathe new life into my almost dead existence
I wondered if your kiss would help me
reignite a fire of desire, would remind me
Iβm more than a wife and mother
But most of all I wondered if maybe, just maybe
someone would finally love me
I wrote this poem in July of 2025.

The world has ended for me more times than I care to remember,
more time than I care to count
something about my soul being too sensitive for this world
something about desperation and frustration embedded in me
since I was a little kid
every slight, every roll of the eyes feels like an earthquake inside
everything is intensified twice

Whatβs a song lyric that has stuck with you forever?
“Cut people like tags on my clothing”
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