I wrote this poem in October of 2025.

letβs take a midnight flight to Tokyo and get lost in Japan
like that Shawn Mendes song
letβs eat great sushi if there is such a thing
and pretend weβre 15 again
and so free spirited and carefree
I wrote this poem in October of 2025.

as the leaves turn crisp, I find myself reminiscent of the many women Iβve been
excited for the version of me thatβs to come
understanding I was always right
to continue on and trust the process
understanding this heroineβs journey of mine
was indeed worth it
I wrote this poem in October of 2025.

I dig and dig from the skeletal remains of my familyβs lore to make art out of it
to pay tribute to my ancestors and my family hates me for it
because no one is sanctified or worshipped in my stories
everyone is shown as who theyβve been
flawed individuals with mistakes made
with self induced tragedies, with victims
and generational curses left and passed down to us
I wrote this poem in October of 2025.

compasses, faded maps, stereos, VCRS, corded phones
all relics of another era
when we werenβt one click away from seeking validation
from our peers or the news trying to break us with each headline
simpler times when we could ignore
what was happening around us
escribΓ este poema en septiembre del 2022.

los susurros de mi alma me dicen
que por fin me acepto como soy
que por fin me entiendo completamente
que por fin siento un agradecimiento
por una vida llena de dos lenguajes
dos culturas y dos hogares
soy la hija de nacimiento de PerΓΊ
y la hija adoptiva de AmΓ©rica
soy la sangre de los Incas
con la mentalidad de Washington
I wrote this poem in September of 2022.

my heart sings a bilingual song in imperfect castellano
and a fluent English
entre carcajadas y calor de mi comunidad de Athens
between my few childhood memories of Lima
entre las risas de mis hijos
between my parents many sacrifices
entre Wham y Slyvia Plath
between Bad Bunny and Gustavo Becquer
llevo AmΓ©rica en mi corazΓ³n
I carry Peru in my veins
canto esta cancion con amor y dolor
I sing this song with love and pain
I wrote this poem in September of 2022.

I breathe in America I exhale out Peru
Iβm distant, cold, and reserved at times
Iβm warm, nurturing and dramatic at times
I was born in Peru, land of the Incas
land of the conquistadores
and have the blood of both run through my veins
along with their determination and fortitude
I was raised for most of my life in America
and lost part of my language and culture
and gained an individualistic American mindset
I breathe in America, I exhale out Peru
never had a choice in this bicultural existence
I wrote this poem in September of 2025.

once again the united states of white supremacy throws another wrench at my community
making it more of a crime to exist as we are
trying to erase our culture, trying to shame us for our heritage
trying to force us into assimilation by any means possible
trying to target us for simply not fitting into their idea of what America
should look and sound like
and I stand up in defiance and say, a mi me vale madre pendejos
estoy que desde 1986, sembrando raΓces en California, Hawaii y Georgia
y me quedarΓ© aquΓ como su peor pesadilla
una mujer latina, criada y educada en este paΓs
que no se dejara llevar por la marginaciΓ³n y racismo constante
de esta administraciΓ³n
y que lucharΓ‘ hasta el ΓΊltimo respiro por quedarse aquΓ
I wrote this poem in September of 2022.

I found love and it wasnβt at a bar or an app
I found it on the soil I was born on,
I found it in the embrace of my homeland
I found it in welcome from everyone
I met and reconnected with
I found it in the accent I never had
I found love as the prodigal daughter of my country
I hadnβt seen in 32 years
I wrote this poem in September of 2025.

as summer wanes, and the days gets shorter and cool air welcomes me in the morning
I feel a magnitude of gratitude and grief for this summer
gratitude for all of the time spent with friends, for the poetry written, for all the growth that happened
and grief for the vacation not taken, for the depression that paused me at various points,
for the things not accomplished
and as the leaves turn, I wonder about I could have if only I hadnβt struggled with mental illness
I wrote this poem in September of 2025.

last time I saw her, she was on her 5th husband
she didnβt know how to be alone, stand up on her own
always needed a man by her side
and even as she aged and her looks waned
she had her aryan blonde blue eyed looks to get her by
it was a crystalized existence
something about her frozen in time
someone had never taught her that alone
she was enough
I wrote this poem in September of 2022.

and the roses never wilted,
they just transformed into flowers
never seen before
for a while it looked like they were dying
as they slowly turned gray and then black
but then they bloomed into something different,
a unique kind of beautiful
I wrote this poem in September of 2022.

gratitude taste like mamiβs sopa de pollo
gratitude smells like my loverβs cologne
gratitude feels like a warm hug from my son
gratitude sounds like my sisterβs car in my driveway
gratitude looks like me looking at the Goddess in the mirror
I wrote this poem in September of 2025.

sometimes I feel like I invade places Iβm not meant to be in
I feel too immigrant, too loud, too intense, too othered
but then I remember, Iβm not doing this just for me
Iβm doing this for all of the version before me
who couldnβt have ever imagined taking up spaces
in places that felt foreign to her