karma bit me and now Iβm paying for all of my emotional crimes now Iβm met with silence and indifference and I go and examine what was the final straw which post led you over the ledge from friendship to being acquaintances once again
I wrote this in 2019 when I was reflecting about the way men have often objectified in a way thatthey almost always seem to just want the fun and sexy part of me but seem to often have problems seeing the rest of me. I’ve almost always felt like I’ve been good enough to be their lover but never good enough to be introduced to their mother. Do I still feel this way? I honestly don’t know. I like the attention and validation I get from men because of my looks but sometimes it feels so hollow. **This poem went through heavy edits in June of 2026.
Often men want this girl…the ones that’s always down for a “good” timeBUT run away from this one….the other girl …the vulnerable one that has a realness hard to accept
Tell me Iβm beautiful, tell me Iβm sexy Objectify me, sleep with me breadcrumb me, ghost me, then try to come back to me And when I deny you insult me, threaten me,try your best to hurt me- Your words mean nothing to me Youβre not the first but will be the last who tries to destroy me Youβre not the first but will be the last who treats me like your on call whore Youβre not the first but will be the last who tells me Iβm not good enough and after all that, try to come back again and Tell me you miss, tell me you want me Tell me youβre sorry, tell me you LOVE ME Be persistent in your quest in trying to bed me with empty promises about how this time it will be different and how we have history so I can laugh and laugh and turn you down and watch you sulk honey, I know you watch me on social media so you should know better than to ever come back to me
me and my cousins followed in our abuelas footsteps having kids out of wedlock with men who abandoned us and becoming the other woman and God bless our parents for trying to break this unhealthy cycles but Gabrielaβs blood is too strong for any of us to fight off properly so at some point as we come into adulthood we search for love in the wrong places like her, become pick mes and suffer the consequences of our actions
I wrote this in September of 2019 after I read somewhere about some politician making fun of AOC for doing the “Latina Thing”. It annoyed the fuck out of me.
Edit: I revised this poem heavily in 2025 when I performed it in open mic. Here’s a link to that performance
what I think of the haters
make fun of our accents,make fun of our names- call us feisty, caliente, spicy. too loud, too sexy try to bully us into silence try to put us down with racist and ignorant insults try to stereotype us- try to make us feel less than try to kill us- but understand that we’re here to stay, and weβre not letting anyone get in our way donβt you know that weβre descendents of Mayan, Aztec, and Incan Kings and Queens and survival and resilience is embedded in our DNA y estamos aquΓ para quedarnos para siempre
Sometimes the poem just writes itself without asking me what I want the rage, the grief,over what this world is becoming seeps out of my pen and stains the paper I wanted to write a love poem on
he came for my people followed the rhetoric of our hate fueled president men, women, children killed in cold blood because they were the wrong race, the wrong color spoke the wrong language he came for βUSβ the so-called invaders him at just 21 years old filled with hatred from head to toe brainwashed by white supremacy twenty two lives taken as a consequence of a monstrous ideology twenty two families who will forever grieve and mourn the neverending sorrow loss of their loved ones taken too soon twenty two families with an infinity of questions and no real answers and as usual the useless thoughts and prayers come, and the law makers are the worst, making empty promises to fight this American epidemic but after a few days, they will forget like everyone else itβs no longer a question of why this happened ttβs become a question of when will be the next time
september , september, september please be calmer, please be kinder please bring an air of prosperity so I can dig myself out of the financial hole Iβve found myself in please allow me some time to breathe, rest, and reset
My jealousy is green and monstrous- Its big and dramatic Itβs almost epic and iβm like dammit I wish I wasnβt like this but maybe itβs time to accept it itβs not that Iβm toxic Or that something is wrong with me I just need a lover who only has eyes for me, who doesnβt think about other options when heβs with me whoβs so obsessed with me, Iβm like the air he needs to breathe in order to live
floating across the water, Iβve never felt more loved, Iβve never felt safer and thereβs something magical about this moment, a poem or a picture I canβt capture how I look like in utmost serenity and peace
touch me in such a way that I canβt get enough of you stimulate all of my five senses until I lose myself completely make forget how I promised myself never to fall in love again make me yours with a passion that makes me break my vow of celibacy for good reason
We danced and danced until we fell into each other and consummated our desire and you told me you loved me for the first time it was then and there I knew weβd be together the rest of our lives
I believe a good poem will move you in such a way it will evoke some emotion in you I believe a great poem will rip you apart, punch you in the gut and render you completely speechless
I made promises to myself after your departure- I promise to be completely myself for next love candidate- No matter how crazy that may look like- I promise to show him my prose and poetry- even if it opens a door to hurtful truths he deserves to know my past if he wants to be part of my present and form a part of my future- I promise to not place him on a pedestal Iβll look for his humanity, truth, and accept him for who he is and no matter how much I love him- I wonβt accommodate to him or compromise my integrity Heβll have to learn to live with and love the strong woman I am today
when I think of the term βmy belovedβ all I can think of are my poems all I can think of are my journal entries all I can think of is writing that leads me to my sanity