the sun sets and the sky turns pink and you take my hand and tell me Iβm all youβve ever wanted And Iβm overwhelmed by your grand gesture of love and have the urge to walk away but instead I stay thinking maybe this time it will different
I breathe in America I exhale out Peru Iβm distant, cold, and reserved at times Iβm warm, nurturing and dramatic at times I was born in Peru, land of the Incas land of the conquistadores and have the blood of both run through my veins along with their determination and fortitude I was raised for most of my life in America and lost part of my language and culture and gained an individualistic American mindset I breathe in America, I exhale out Peru never had a choice in this bicultural existence
I found love and it wasnβt at a bar or an app I found it on the soil I was born on, I found it in the embrace of my homeland I found it in welcome from everyone I met and reconnected with I found it in the accent I never had I found love as the prodigal daughter of my country I hadnβt seen in 32 years
weβre not promised tomorrow, so we must make the best of our todays- creating community with our friends, reconnecting with our roots loving our children with a loud fervor weβre not promised tomorrow, so we must appreciate everything we have the legs that take us on walks and runs the creativity that flows from our minds the laughter shared with loved ones
and the roses never wilted, they just transformed into flowers never seen before for a while it looked like they were dying as they slowly turned gray and then black but then they bloomed into something different, a unique kind of beautiful
mami cocoons me in her warmth, holds me carefully so I donβt break Iβm her porcelain baby doll she nurses me back to health with devotion and dedication Iβm a gift from the heavens- an unexpected surprise sent to complete our family and she doesnβt care if I came slightly damaged
the gaslighting, the love bombing, the disappearing werenβt the worst of your crimes but together they added up to a mountain of trauma It was the mt.everest of traumatic experiences constantly making me wonder about the karmic debt I was paying making me wonder why I kept you in my life allowed you to take up space in my mind and poems sometimes I think I kept you solely for the fountain of inspiration you drew out of me
Iβm an expert at navigating the gray and vague trying to romanticize and make fires out of the smallest of sparks deluding myself into thinking if I stick around long enough Heβll realize Iβm the one
karma bit me and now Iβm paying for all of my emotional crimes now Iβm met with silence and indifference and I go and examine what was the final straw which post led you over the ledge from friendship to being acquaintances once again
I wrote this in 2019 when I was reflecting about the way men have often objectified in a way thatthey almost always seem to just want the fun and sexy part of me but seem to often have problems seeing the rest of me. I’ve almost always felt like I’ve been good enough to be their lover but never good enough to be introduced to their mother. Do I still feel this way? I honestly don’t know. I like the attention and validation I get from men because of my looks but sometimes it feels so hollow. **This poem went through heavy edits in June of 2026.
Often men want this girl…the ones that’s always down for a “good” timeBUT run away from this one….the other girl …the vulnerable one that has a realness hard to accept
Tell me Iβm beautiful, tell me Iβm sexy Objectify me, sleep with me breadcrumb me, ghost me, then try to come back to me And when I deny you insult me, threaten me,try your best to hurt me- Your words mean nothing to me Youβre not the first but will be the last who tries to destroy me Youβre not the first but will be the last who treats me like your on call whore Youβre not the first but will be the last who tells me Iβm not good enough and after all that, try to come back again and Tell me you miss, tell me you want me Tell me youβre sorry, tell me you LOVE ME Be persistent in your quest in trying to bed me with empty promises about how this time it will be different and how we have history so I can laugh and laugh and turn you down and watch you sulk honey, I know you watch me on social media so you should know better than to ever come back to me
Sometimes the poem just writes itself without asking me what I want the rage, the grief,over what this world is becoming seeps out of my pen and stains the paper I wanted to write a love poem on
september , september, september please be calmer, please be kinder please bring an air of prosperity so I can dig myself out of the financial hole Iβve found myself in please allow me some time to breathe, rest, and reset
floating across the water, Iβve never felt more loved, Iβve never felt safer and thereβs something magical about this moment, a poem or a picture I canβt capture how I look like in utmost serenity and peace
touch me in such a way that I canβt get enough of you stimulate all of my five senses until I lose myself completely make forget how I promised myself never to fall in love again make me yours with a passion that makes me break my vow of celibacy for good reason