I wrote this poem in 2002 when I was about to break up with this guy “R” that was kind of aggressive and mean to me throughout our relationship. He was also kind of a jerk to my toddler son at the time. Instead of ending things, I ended up cheating on him and eventually ghosting him at a time when he needed me the most. Needless to say, he was pissed and wrote me lots of hate filled emails in CAPS LOCK and colored ink. It was pretty intense. I felt horrible after that.
What do you say
when you fall out of love
with that special somebody?
How do you explain
that they no longer have your heart?
What do you do
when you see the hurtful expression
on their face?
As you tell him,
you’re no longer his to hold.
How can you live after
causing so much pain?
Life on the BPD 