I wrote this poem in December of 2023.
not sure when a new muse will appear
I just gave up on my most recent one
I can take a hint
he’s not interested
he’s scared because I’m too crazy
and will fuck up his life
and maybe he’s right
maybe I’m not healed enough,
not intelligent enough
maybe for him I’m just not enough
and this doesn’t make me angry
I’m in the acceptance phase
I’ll no longer bother him
I’ll just let him be
I’ll just wait for a new muse to appear
out of nowhere from my dreams
into my real life
my manifestation game is strong
though sometimes my aim is off
Life on the BPD 
Beautiful. I struggle with accepting rejection. I guess we all do. SO damn painful and depressing. More fish in the sea I keep reminding myself. I hope the new year brings you many muses!
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Interesting take. But be mindful that not all muses are an asset to the creative life. I just wrote several hundred words on the topic. Check out at nickhugues.us/blog
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I agree to disagree.
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