Men love a pretty mess like me
especially the nice ones who want to fix me and save me
I’m their pretty princess who’s so lovely and sweet
And for some, my pussy makes them think or say they love me
but when I turn from a pretty mess to a crazy and chaotic hurricane
they can’t stand to be around me and run away
“I never signed up for this, you’re toxic”
and I cry and then laugh at the absurdity
you don’t get to choose just to love the fun part of me
because that’s not love
that’s their primal need and lust for me disguised as loved
because real love accepts everything about me
Life on the BPD 
A poem on a balloon? Absolutely brilliant! And once again Patty, your honesty is so inspiring…..to be a complete person like you are and I think you nailed it, the part about loving ALL of someone. I’m reminded of that movie Good Will Hunting when Robin Williams tells Matt Damon that it’s the little pecadillos that he misses most about his wife who had passed away.
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The balloon was full of my self limiting beliefs about romance and I made a video about it 2 summers ago and popped it. It was very cathartic and my way of finding peace and closure from these beliefs. I recommend it.
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I’ve been thinking about writing letters again and sending them to friends rather than emails. The balloon idea will fit right into my plan. Thanks.
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