I wrote this poem in July of 2020.

Chaotic and destructive thoughts
enter my mind

I want to die and feel the blood drain
from my body

I want to fuck
and feel pleasure
with a complete stranger

I want to yell at everyone
that makes me feel worthless

I want to sing all of the sad and depressing songs
of unrequited loves –
But most of all-
I want the dangerous nonsense in my head
to STOP!