
Describe your life in an alternate universe.


Describe your life in an alternate universe.

I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

the facade of equality is cloaked in good intentions and lovely words-
and while laws have been passed to prevent discrimination
and to try to level the game of success,
itβs all a sham, itβs all a con
we still live in a world where the color of your skin and social status
and gender determine your prosperity
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

did you drink your water today?
did you remind yourself youβre worthy of love?
did you understand you were always enough?
will you repeat after me-
I wonβt run away from or suppress my feelings
I need to face my emotions head on
or else Iβll break down
aqui esta la version en espanol:
Poesia: Falsa Esperanza
you were my hope in love restored
everything I had dreamed of
everything I had wished for
and it was nice for a while-
getting lost in our love
thinking it was safe,
thinking it could be my permanent sanctuary
until one day like clockwork
you changed your mind and decided I wasnβt enough
and I was left wondering βwhat the fuck is wrong with me?β
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

At 5 am, I woke up and wrote a 4 page poem
about how I wasnβt enough and proceeded to crash my car
and my therapist asked if I wanted to die-
And I was like βnah, I just couldnβt reign my impulsivity inβ
at least this time I got control of the car and didnβt fuck
anyone else up


What traditions have you not kept that your parents had?
I wrote this poem in August of 2022.

My default setting must be sad
because when a wave of happiness comes
all I can feel is anxiety
a stabbing in my gut that makes me nauseous
maybe Iβm still getting used to this new feeling
of joy and excitement in my life
Maybe I donβt know how to deal with
finally being healthy and happy
maybe Iβm just used to my constant state of misery
Here’s the English Version of this poem:
Poetry: Lust High
por ti abrirΓ© el cerco alrededor de mi corazΓ³n
porque inspiras confianza y ternura
porque siento que contigo puedo encontrar la esperanza
de nuevo en entregar mi vulnerabilidad
I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

I used to water my roots with the supposed love of others
their compliments, their energy made me whole
but eventually theyβd tired of being my water, my earth
my everything and leave
And I was left once again incomplete-
until one day I learned to water my roots with my tears,
my strength, my self-love
And now my growth and potential are infinite
Aqui esta la version en Espanol:
Poesia: Algo Pasajero
Iβm more than a temporary destination for men to lay their love in
I will no longer lay down and play princess
and adjust and accommodate to their egos and needs
when they can never make me a priority
when they can never acknowledge my humanity
from now I wonβt allow anyone near me
unless they show themselves worthy of my time and energy
Aqui esta la version en espaΓ±ol:
Poesia: PodrΓa Ser
Iβm not the woman of your dreams or the woman youβll worship as a deity
or the woman who accommodates and bends according to your needs
but Iβm the woman whoβll haunt you with the βwhat ifsβ,
Iβm the woman whoβll fuel your creativity,
Iβm the woman whoβll make you believe magics exists
I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

I give my pain and sorrow to God
and it lessens the heaviness in my soul
and Iβve never felt lighter
and I laugh more and feel content and gratitude
and I no longer want to die
Instead Iβm excited to live
Iβm excited about my wrinkles and every birthday
because Iβm finally enjoying the gift of life
God has bestowed on me
I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

The emotional scars are starting to fade
As Iβm starting a new phase
A phase full of love and laughter
A phase full of introspection and humility
and while Iβm alone as I start this phase
Iβm happier and healthier
Iβve taken off all of my masks
Iβve discarded my need to be loved and accepted
This is my era
One where I finally allow myself
To let others see the real me

Which activities make you lose track of time?
I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

I was trapped in a mental cage of misery
I didnβt know how to rewrite my story
and while poetry helped me
it was with grief and therapy I finally felt free
I learned to let go of old resentments and grudges
and healed old emotional bruises
and while I still have minor annoyances
my anger and angst no longer control me