This is my response to prompt #5: Something you know something a lot
where is my honorary degree tho?
Where is my honorary degree in my BPD recovery ? I’ve read more books than I’ve cared to- I’ve acknowledged more toxic patterns than I wanted to- And I’m almost an expert at DBT But I still have days when I think it’s all bullshit I still have times I miss the chaos in my life so I know I still have a long way to go in this journey and it’s needed to fulfill my potential I need to let go of anything that caused me harm and say goodbye to who I once was Thanks to this recovery journey I’m self aware, I’m full of self compassion, I’m going to become the best version of myself
Maybe I was too harsh with my words Frustrated with rejection and abandonment I was filled with anger and resentment that needed to bleed on paper Maybe I’ve been too much of a critic Cutting you down with petty words and insults Perhaps I was projecting my own insecurities Maybe I should have taken some of the blame of your unexpected departures I know I’m not an easy woman to be with often times I’m too emotional and needy And maybe, just maybe I forgive all of you and me We were all trying our best to love and be loved And sometimes even our best isn’t enough
This was my response to prompt #3: Three good things
I don’t know how I’d cope without these three things
Coffee, music, and books are what I need to get through the dreariest of days Coffee to wake me up from my somber mood Music to feel every single feeling in my body and maybe try to dance them all out Books to calm down my most intrusive of thoughts Coffee,music, and books are what I need to make myself shiny again
This was my response to prompt #3: How are you working towards your goals
so true
Consistency and routine are staples in my life they help me grow and thrive I’m outgrown the chaos and adrenaline rushes I used to find myself in- it held me back and made me stagnant I finally understood the importance of a boring and quiet life it is needed to make my dreams a reality it is essential for my serenity and peace
This was my response to prompt: Your favorite part of the day
A Beautiful Morning in Georgia
mornings used to bother me and made me so grouchy now I wake up excited every morning about the unseen possibilities Will it be a day full of calm and routine where I’m inspired to write about a poem about serenity? Or will it be a day full of drama and chaos that turns my poetic voice into something resembling anger and sorrow? mornings fill me up with the excitement with the hidden potential of it
So for the month of December, I decided to combine two of my favorite things which are journal prompts and poetry. I found these December Journal Prompts somewhere on pinterest and decided to write a poem every day in response to them. It’s going to be a challenge for sure considering I’m still posting new content every day. It’s going to be interesting what I come up with, it might get emotional and crazy-but hey that’s my brand-lol. I wanted to share the prompts as well as well as a link to the blog they’re from.
Wish me the best of luck
December Journal Prompts:
1.Your favorite part of the day 2.What needs to happen this month 3.How are you working towards your goals 4.Three good things 5.Something you know a lot about 6.An important person in your life 7.Your favorite recipe 8.An event that turned out differently than planned 9.The best way to spend a cold evening 10.One thing you could not give up 11.A goal you reached 12.Something to celebrate 13.How you procrastinate 14.What did you think you’d be when you grew up 15.The best type of surprise 16.Your favorite household chore 17.The best gift you could receive 18.Music that helps you relax 19.One thing you’d like to see 20.Favorite winter traditions 21.Advice you’d give to someone else your age 22.Something all people should know 23.What’s you’d really like to do tomorrow 24.Your top priority 25.A thing your life has in excess 26.How has your life changed since last year 27.A book you want to read 28.The person you’re always happy to see 29.One thing to do 30.The time of day you prefer 31. A word to describe your past year
Below is a link to the blog “Life of Lovely” from where the prompts came from:
you wear many faces, sometimes you have dark hair sometimes you have blond hair but you always take me in your arms and make me feel loved and accepted for who I am you don’t care that I’m too crazy or too much It’s a type of excitement, an almost adrenaline rush for you and if I annoy you-you’ll tell me I’m being ridiculous but apologize right after I burst into tears and you’re not afraid of my tears or screams because you know it comes with the territory when it comes to loving me and then I wake up- in my self imposed solitary confinement and I wonder if this dream could one day come into existence like my other dreams or it it will become another fulfilled fantasy Because love stories aren’t meant for someone crazy like me
Life on the BPD 