



I wrote this poem in april of 2023.

I put my insecurities and fears on display for the world to see
itβs a most arduous task-itβs not for the weak
at first I thought it was crazy
it was me trying to get attention
it was me seeking validation
and while it may have been these things
it was also brave, courageous
to be so radically honest
about what unnerves me
Itβs how Iβve been able to heal
and claim my identity


I wrote this poem in April of 2022.

Thorny long stemmed burgundy red roses remind me of how Iβm loved
The beauty of the roses is how men admire me and fall for me
the burgundy red reminds me of how my heart bleeds after they leave me
and the sharp thorns stab my lungs as rejection and devastation sets in


I wrote this poem in april of 2023.

a red bird appeared to me in a dream
it carried the spirit of an ancestor I had never known
he told me to not get too comfortable in my current life
while itβs been a good life and I keep thriving
and making my dreams come true
I have even more room for improvement
my purpose is bigger than Iβve ever dreamed of
and through my storytelling
I will not just heal myself but help others
find their own path in their heroβs journey


I wrote this poem in April of 2022.

1)donβt try to change me
2)donβt try to save me
3)donβt put me up on an altar
4)donβt try to dim my light
5)donβt tell me you love me unless you mean it
6)donβt get mad when I make you into my muse


I wrote this poem in april of 2023.

my protective instinct rings loudly in me
I will protect everyone I love no matter what
even if I have to die for them to be safe
even if I have to leave them alone for them to have peace
of mind
their well being means everything to me
inside of me lies the heart of a lioness ready to roar
ready to protect everyone she loves




I wrote this poem in April of 2023.

the freedom and independence in my son
brings me a sense of pride with so much happiness
I see his fiery spirit shine from within
and his light is so bright-
I know Iβve done something right
heβs not afraid to take risks, heβs not afraid of failure
Heβs not afraid to be himself
and I breathe a sense of relief
he will not bear the sense of forced obligations
or burden of expectations I had-
instead heβll make himself and his happiness
a priority above all else
while still caring for humanity
itβs the beginning of breaking a generational curse
of obedient and silent martyrdom
thatβs been inherited for generations
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thought I was done with this part of my life
accepted solitude was now my new life
but you had to smile at me
butterflies appear and I want to vomit
my heart races everytime youβre near
And ugh, I fucking hate you for this
so embarrassing at my age to crush on someone so hard
and to write poems about a new unrequited love
And I tried to ignore and quell this feeling
but you have the audacity to appear in my dreams
maybe itβs your fire energy, maybe it’s your poetry
Iβm not sure exactly what it is
but fuck you for bringing out the romantic in me