lately I take the biggest bites out of life and flaunt it in front of everyone for too long I suppress my hunger for experience, For adventure thought I was crazy for trying to explore my curious nature So instead I took small bites here and there thinking it would be enough but it wasnβt who I was a little bird taking nips naw Iβm a condor reading to pounce and satiate my hunger my big ass appetite ready to be satisfied with the unpleasant and pleasurable things in life
I want to hold on to whatβs real and not be stuck in a daydream I want to live in my present And not stuck in my past I want to be over you and not be triggered by the memory of you
another 4 years of trump and who knows if America will still be standing if anyone whoβs not male or white will still have rights another 4 years of trump and I see a future of fascism and dictatorship and U.S born citizens being sent back to their parentβs country of origin another 4 years of trump and Iβm not sure Iβll still be alive or at very least still maintain a semblance of my sanity
Home is my son’s laughter after a hard day home is the sun on my skin while I run home is peace and Tranquility after years of Chaos home is letting other see the real me and not some fake personality
it wasnβt until today I realized how ordinary you really were It wasnβt that you were ever that interesting or special It was me with my lovergirl delusional glasses refusing to see past what was in front of me Seeing and getting caught up in fantasies of who you could be when really you were, the most ordinary of men not malicious, not especially intelligent not really helpful just kind of existing without any spark without anything that would make me look twice at you now
Pretty gets me in a man’s door but also makes me feel like a whore I’ve been pretty sexy, pretty nice, pretty sweet I’ve also been pretty crazy, pretty Petty, and pretty mean men love me when I’m pretty and submissive but not when I’m pretty reclusive men want the pretty girl who’s fun but not when I’m a pretty girl who’s a selfish cunt pretty gets me notice but also gets me dismissed
with this new strain of COVID, all of my cell are mutating and regenerating and making be at a standstill where I have time to sit and think about what I really want, about whether or not Iβm doing enough to live a life worth living or if Iβm just existing in a routine of monotony that leads nowhere in a routine Iβve deluded myself into calling healthy but really itβs far from it
Men love a pretty mess like me especially the nice ones who want to fix me and save me Iβm their pretty princess whoβs so lovely and sweet And for some, my pussy makes them think or say they love me but when I turn from a pretty mess to a crazy and chaotic hurricane they can’t stand to be around me and run away βI never signed up for this, you’re toxicβ and I cry and then laugh at the absurdity you don’t get to choose just to love the fun part of me because that’s not love that’s their primal need and lust for me disguised as loved because real love accepts everything about me
the day I was told I needed a total hip replacement surgery
my body has betrayed me one last time and this time Iβll take charge of it and control whatβs happening this time Iβm old enough to stop this nonsense and kill whatβs causing me the most insufferable pain and Iβll replace the hip thatβs the vane of my existence, the diseased hip that must be sacrificed for me to stop the curse of martyrdom passed down for generations
I am a powerful force in this complicated world full of intelligence humor and intense sexuality men want to fuck me, women want to hate me both want to get near me I’m an Amazon goddess in a millennial mom bod I try my best to stay humble but have you ever been called the most beautiful woman in the world or has your power make grown men cry and run away from you it’s hard to stay down to earth when I hold so much power between my legs and my hands Soy una a mujer, made up of chaos and trauma who carries strength and resilience as her armor
What’s the most delicious thing you’ve ever eaten?
Ceviche, ceviche, ceviche you are a national treasure to me your origin is mysterious your taste is juicy and tasty ceviche, ceviche, ceviche, you are an explosion of ecstacy because you feel like youβre making love to my mouth with every bite I melt inside
to see my american dream I just need to step into my backyard and look at my holy trinity who call me mom theyβre the ones I try to better myself for theyβre the one who make my immigrant existence worth living for theyβre my american dream wrapped up in burps, dark humor and love
If you were forced to wear one outfit over and over again, what would it be?
This is the most terrible prompt on WordPress to be honest. Perhaps this is coming from a place of vanity since the only thing that made me seriously consider the convent was the thought of wearing the same outfit the rest of my life. In fact, here’s a poem I wrote about it.
βMy vice
On a sunny day, I was angry and running and said, βwho the fuck needs menβ and I thought about joining the convent I could definitely take a vow of celibacy but then I remember their vow of poverty And I canβt become a poor person again Sure God will understand Iβm made for starbucks And pretty dresses from amazon And to take a vow of modesty would feel like an atrocity a crime against my humanity I could never tone down my beauty I look too good in a bikini so for now Iβll have to settle for a secular life because being a spoiled and pretty girl is my vice
I couldn’t even wear this banging outfit the rest of my life.
Anyways, WordPress needs to do better with their prompts. πββοΈπββοΈπββοΈ
july, july, july itβs the month where I lose my mind the heat gets to me and turns up the BSC in me you wonβt find me sweet and eager to please in July you wonβt find me full of ruffles and flowery phrases in poetry youβll find me being a ball of immigrant rage and fury youβll find me a woman whoβs had enough of the American dream bullshit and ready to roar and scream out everything wrong with this country