I wrote this poem in October of 2022.

Running away from my feelings, running away from my thoughts
I will my legs to keep going as they start to groan
and threaten to turn to mush
the autumn sun shines on me and this should lift my spirits
but the gloom stay within as I run, run, run
Running away from my feelings, running away from my thoughts
I still hate everything-especially myself
Thinking of all my wrongs and how Iβm doomed to a life
of solitary confinement
Will I ever fix whatβs wrong with me?
and then I see it-a deer a few yards away from me
3 second glances are exchanged it runs across the road
away from me-
and something shifts in me
hope is awakened with a reminder of natureβs splendor
it puts everything in perspective
I am but a speck in the universe
a creation of GOD
Itβs a waste to focus on past regrets and couldβve beens
I need to seize the moment of what is and what could be-
and I run on to the next chapter of my life


