
Describe your life in an alternate universe.


Describe your life in an alternate universe.


List 30 things that make you happy.


The door of creativity has opened for me and thereβs no going back-
Writing has become my new obsession-
with it I let out years of my pent up frustration and rage
I donβt even understand having a constant need to write
every single thing
my writerβs block is now a distant memory
as my pen lets out all of my lifeβs stories of sorrow and joy
I wrote this poem in 2019.
Our relationship slowly wilted
Too many broken promises
Too many sacrifices on my part
I gave you my youth and you two children
and you couldnβt give me an ounce of affection
I tried to melt your icy cold wall and you denied my warmth
And I tried over and over again to save us!
But how do you save something that continues to die?
Date nights, long conversations,accommodating to your needs continuously,
and marriage counseling
but all of it was useless and completely pointless
So I gave up and let our marriage fall into a coffin
along with your broken promises to change
I even kept the coffin open with a slight hope we could fix us
But one day I got tired of waiting, waiting and waiting
and I decided to close the coffin and nail it shut-
It was time to bury our lackluster love
I wrote this play for my creative writing class in college in 2006.

Characters
LACIE-Female/Age 28
JASON-boy/age 8
DAD(DALE)-Age 56
MOM(MARY)-Age 45
Setting
This takes place in a nice and clean kitchen and there is a refrigerator with pictures and Jasonβs drawings and also a table.
LACIE enters following MARY into the kitchen door and sits down. LACIE puts her coat on the chair. LACIE is coming home from prison. LACIE walks with a slight limp and sits down.
LACIE: Damn, Mom, the kitchen looks a helluva lot different compared to the last time I was here.
MARY: Well, I guess I forgot to mention to you. We renovated the kitchen last summer.
LACIE: Well, I gotta tell ya , you really outdid yourself.
MARY: Yeah, well with your dadβs new job, weβve been able to do a lot of things around here we always wanted to do but never had the money toβ
LACIE: Wait, Dad got a new job? God, heβs been at Phillips Assembly for years, I thought he would stay there forever.
MARY: Well, ya know we thought it was time for him to move on to something elseβ¦something where he could better our situation.
LACIE: Still, Dad and change, you know damn well those are just two things that donβt go together.(Looks at fingernails and bites them.) So, where is he working?
MARY: Dacute Enterprises. Heβs an overseer for their assembly line.
(LACIE bursts out laughing.)
MARY: Hey, whatβs so funny?
LACIE: Who in their right mind would give a drunk a supervisory position?
(MARY frowns.)
MARY: Well, maybe things have changed more than ya think.
LACIE: Whadda ya mean?
MARY: Youβll see. So, how does it feel to finally be back home?
LACIE: Pretty good. But damn, I didnβt imagine that so much shit would change βround here.
MARY: Hey, watch your language around here!
LACIE: It didnβt bother ya before.
MARY: Well, we donβt talk that way no more.
(LACIE gives MARY a dismissive look.)
MARY: Ya know, for Jasonβs sake.
LACIE: Okay, then.
MARY: So, ya hungry?
LACIE: Yeah.
MARY: Whadda ya feel like eating?
(MARY goes to the refrigerator and looks for something to cook.)
LACIE: Anything really.
MARY: Okay.
(MARY pulls out something to cooks fridge. LACIE looks at JASONβS artwork on
the side of the fridge.)
LACIE: So, these are Jasonβs drawings?
(MARY closes fridge and looks proudly at artwork.)
MARY: Yeah, creative ainβt he?
LACIE: Yeah, I see that. I canβt wait βtil he gets home. Me and him have lotsof catching up to do.
MARY: Donβt get so excited , we really do need to talk aboutβ
LACIE: Later, I donβt feel up to listening to one of your talksβ¦had to listen to enough of them when you use to visit me.
(MARY lets out a big sigh.)
MARY: Okay.
LACIE: So, whenβs he coming home?
MARY: Well your dad shoulda picked him up from voice lessons ten minutes ago so they should be home maybe in 30 minutes.
LACIE: Voice lessons? What theβ¦.I mean, when did this happen?
MARY: Six months ago,the reverend at church heard him singing one day and thought he was pretty good and so he suggested voice lessons to fine tune his instrument, whateva that means. Your dad didnβt wanna let him at first, but Jason, as always, found a way to convince him.
LACIE: Church huh? Since, when did yβall start going to church?
MARY: Wellβ¦
LACIE: Ya know something; I need a beer about now.
(LACIE gets up and looks in the fridge for a beer.)
LACIE: Where does dad keep the beer nowadays? I canβt find it.
MARY: Your dad doesnβt drink anymore.
(LACIE slams the refrigerator door and sits down.)
LACIE: What do you mean dad donβt drink no more? You gotta be joking right?
MARY: Now why would I joke about something like that?
LACIE: He donβt drink no more? At all?
MARY: Nope. It was one of the conditions the social worker gave us that your dad had to agree to so the state would let us have custody of Jason. I wanted him to tell you himself, butβ
LACIE: What the hell! I mean I know Iβve been gone for a while, but sheesh I expected at least a few things to stay the same.
MARY: I thought youβd be happy your dad stopped drinking. I know itβs something you used to always whine about.
LACIE: I know I did, itβs just thatβ¦
MARY: What is it?
LACIE: Never mind. Well, at least I can count on one thing and thatβs finally getting to know my kid. I canβt wait to see him. I wonder if heβll still remember meβ
MARY: We need to talk.
LACIE: I told you, I donβt feel likeβ
MARY: You just donβt know. There are some things that weβve had to tellβ
(DALE enters with JASON running. Jason notices Lacie and hides behind Maryβs chair.)
MARY: I wasnβt expecting yβall so soon. (Gives DALE an accusatory look.)A call sure
wouldβve been nice.
DALE: Well, I didnβt expect Jβs lesson to let out so early and since I wasβ
JASON: Whoβs that?
(Lacie approaches Jason slowly.)
LACIE: You should know who I am, now come over here and give your β
(Dale immediately gets in between Lacie and Jason and pulls Jason to him, faces him.)
MARY: Sister a big hug. Donβt ya remember we talked last week about a sister that might be coming to live with us?
JASON: Oh! Now, I remember! The one living inβ¦in (Jason starts scratching his head)
DALE: Europe for the past six years.
JASON: Thatβs rightβ¦Hey, Iβm Jason
(Extends hand to LACIE, LACIE grabs him and hugs him, JASON is real uncomfortable. LACIE wonβt let go of JASON, MARY goes and rescues JASON from LACIEβS grasp and pulls him towards her. LACIEβS eyes tear up.)
MARY: Jason, honey, why donβt you go wash up and go to your room for a little while your dad and I catch up with your sister.
JASON: Okay, Mommy.
(JASON leaves, but looks back in kind of a weird way at LACIE.)
(LACIE stands there for a minute and then walks towards where JASON went, MARY stops her by grabbing her by the shoulders. Theyβre facing each other.)
MARY: Donβt!
LACIE: Sister? Europe? What kinda lies have you been telling MY son?
DALE: Keep your voice down, the boy will hear you.
(MARY motions for LACIE to sit down but LACIE wonβt.)
MARY: Sit down, please, your dad and I need to explain a few things to you.
LACIE: Explain what? That you have basically stolen my son from meβ¦ YOU promised me he would know who I was once I got out. No fucking wonder you wouldnβt bring him to come visit me. I ainβt gonna listen to this shit.
(LACIE heads towards the door to get JASON but DALE stands in front of the door.)
LACIE: Get outta my way, youβ
DALE: Sit down and shut up and LISTEN to what me and your ma have to say if you care about Jason at all.
LACIE: Shit! Thatβs funny coming from you considering all my life the only thing you ever cared about was your fucking Rolling Rock. I wouldnβt be in this fucking mess if you hadnβt been such a sorry-
(DALE slaps LACIE across the cheek, MARY pulls them apart, all three of them just stand there for a moment.)
LACIE: I donβt need this shit! Iβm getting my son and leaving this hellhole!
MARY: Please, Lacie, donβt be so damn stubborn and hear us outβ
LACIE: Why the hell should I?
(LACIE walks towards the door again.)
MARY: If youβre not a completely selfish bitch, you will-
(LACIE stops and faces MARY.)
LACIE: Selfish, like you should be one to fucking talk calling ME selfish when youβre the one who wouldnβt stop HIM(pointing to DALE) from beating the shit out of me when heβ
MARY: Just calm down and let me explain some things to you
LACIE: I guess Iβll have to just so you leave me alone. (Crosses her arms with a scowl)
(MARY sits down.)
MARY: Okay, okay. When you had your little incident-
LACIE: Damn, you make it sound like I tripped and fell or something.
DALE: What your ma means is that when you were arrested, we found out all of a sudden you had a son.
MARY: Yeah, you donβt think it took us by surprise? You were gone for two years and we looked everywhere for youβ
LACIE: And so because youβre pissed off at me, you decided to get back at me by telling MY son that you are his parents.
MARY: When are you going to learn the whole world doesnβt revolve around you? What we did was out of love for our grandson. Now just listenβ¦as I was saying we looked for you everywhere.
DALE: And then the cops come up to the house one day and tell us you have killed your husband and if we could take our grandson in.
MARY: A grandson that needed so much out of us and we had no choice and saw ourselves raising your son.
DALE: We started to see things in a new way, ya know.
MARY: All we wanted for him was to grow up with a normal family⦠so yeah
for his well beingβ¦we told him we were his parents, and you were his sister.
LACIE: I canβt believe you did this!
DALE: What did you expect us to do? Tell him that his real mom was in jail for killing his father.
LACIE: Oh and you think I killed him for fun or something, I had to kill that asshole to save both me and Jasonβ¦you donβt fucking understandβ¦that sick bastard had already broken my leg and when I found him trying to mess with Jasonβ¦I knew I had to do something to save him from that monster and I didnβt care if I went to jail for it.
DALE: Whatβs done is done, thereβs no turning back. You can either stay here and live under these conditions or you can leave.
LACIE: I canβt fucking believe this, Mom, I expected you out of all people to understand. Donβt you understand? Everything I did, I did it for him!
MARY: I do understand but β¦you should understand, we were left with no other choice other than to do the right thing for him.
LACIE: And thatβs all you have to say!
DALE: Like I said before, you can either live with this or you can go.
LACIE: I guess Iβll just have toβ
(A basketball bounces into the kitchen and JASON enters the room skipping looking for his ball.)
JASON: Just came to get my ballβ¦
(Picks up basketball and holds it.)
MARY: What did I tell you about playing ball in the house?
JASON: Iβm sorry β¦wonβt do it againβ¦sheesh.
LACIE: Hiβ¦
JASON: You okay?
LACIE: Yeah, Iβm fineβ¦Iβm just a little sad.
JASON: Why
LACIE: I have to make a choice about something important.
JASON: Why?
LACIE: Because I just have to.
JASON: Umβ¦okay. (gets his ball) I got an ideaβ¦ maybe if you play some b-ball with meβ¦you might feel better.
LACIE: Thatβs actually not a bad idea.
Both Lacie and Jason go out together.
I wrote this poem in May of 2022.

I believe in second and third chances
because more often than not
Iβm the one whoβs written off
because more often than
Iβm left after the first time I fuck up
because more often than
Iβm expected to be almost perfect
and this weighs on me heavily
but itβs my cruel reality
so Iβll give a second, a third, even a 4th chance
because I believe people can change
because I accept people for the humans they are
because even if my benevolence burns me at times
at least I donβt commit an emotional crime
cause judgment without compassion
makes one an inhumane and callous robot
Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?


Here is the English version of this poem:
https://lifeonthebpd.com/?p=5970
ya no te-
no soy tuya para-
trato de encontrar las palabras adecuadas
para decirte que nuestro cuento de amor a cabo
pero cada vez que trato
todo se siente insuficiente
y la culpabilidad me cubre
y no me atrevo a herirte

If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?



What advice would you give to your teenage self?

Have you ever broken the law and didn’t get caught, if so how?

Here is the link to scene 2: https://wp.me/p23LY2-1qu
Scene 3
Setting: Ronβs apartment. It is the same chaotic mess that we have seen before in scene 1. Chloe and Landon are standing outside Ronβs door. LANDON has a suit on while CHLOE has some kind of bohemian ensemble. Landon knocks strongly
Ron opens the door and answers it. Ronβs face looks angry for a minute but quickly changes when he sees LANDON.
RON: Hi son. Well itβs nice to see ya (he almost shuts the door on Chloe)
CHLOE: Um..hmm
RON: (turns to CHLOE): Oh, itβs you
CHLOE: You know, a nice hello would have been sufficient.
RON: (turns to LANDON) Have a seat son.Would you like something to drink?
Landon is kind of looking around at all of the chaotic mess of piles everywhere. He tries really hard to hide the disdainful and disgusted look on his face but canβt.
LANDON: Iβm fine.
RON: Okay, to what do I owe the pleasure of you coming around. I havenβt seen you for months.
LANDON: (Clearing his throat) It seems that uhβ¦you are in a dire situation and
RON: Oh, I see, your little sister got to you. Didnβt she? Well, Iβll tell you right now, sheβs worrying you for nothing. Your old manβs alright.
LANDON: You see dad, you are about to be put out of your apartment at the end of the month.
RON: Youβre crazy. That ole biddy has been threatening thatβ
LANDON: Dad! Listen to me, itβs all right here in the contract you signed last time you renewed your lease agreement.
(LANDON takes a contract out of the suitcase. RON snatches it, looks it over, his face goes pale with a deer in the headlights look
RON: Well,Iβllβ¦37 years and I have never been late on paying rent. 37 years, your ma and I made this our home. I just canβtβ
LANDON: Dad, um
CHLOE pats RON on the back.
CHLOE: Itβs okay dad. Everything will be alright.
RON: I just donβt know what Iβm gonna do.
CHLOE: Thatβs why weβre here. To help you with everything.
CHLOE hugs RON while LANDON looks on awkwardly.
Curtain comes down.
Here is a link to the first scene:https://wp.me/p23LY2-1qp
Scene 2:
SETTING: Landonβs apartment. The aesthetic in this apartment is minimalist There are no stray things around. There is a very expensive looking sculpture. Landon has a very simple geometric painting. There is a glass coffee table at the center and really sparse furniture. CHLOE is at the door ready to knock. LANDON is in an expensive jog suit and on his laptop writing a business negotiation.
CHLOE knocks tentatively on LANDONβs door, Landon looks through his smallish peephole, sighs deeply, plasters a forced smile on his face and opens the door.
LANDON: Chloe, hi! To what do I owe the pleasure of having my little sister come over here unannounced. Do you want a drink ?
CHLOE: (goes to sit down slowly on the expensive chair) Noβ¦uhh..I wouldnβt have come over if I didnβt think it was important.
LANDON: Well, you know, you could always send me a text or call me.
CHLOE: You never answer your phone or reply to my texts. Besides, this is really important.
LANDON: Well, you know, Iβm a busy guy. You could have a little more consider-
CHLOE gets frustrated and yells.
CHLOE: Itβs about dad!
LANDON: Jesus! Youβre on that business again. I thought I had already made it clear to you what needs to be done.
CHLOE: No,you didnβt. Youβve skirted around the issue without resolving anything.
LANDON: What is there to resolve? He seems okay living by himself.
CHLOE: You only see him once a month at the most . Heβs struggling and doesnβt want to admit it. Heβs not only holding on to momβs old stuff but is accumulating new stuff as a way to deal with his grief. And to make matters worse, the landlord is about to put him out. We need to reason with him.
LANDON: How is the landlord going to put him out ? I give the old biddy a little something extra so she doesnβt bother him.
CHLOE: You donβt understand.It’s not about money, they want him out because dad has basically made the place a hazard. We need to help dad.
LANDON: And what is your suggestion. Einstein?
CHLOE: Well, you know, he could always move in with you.
LANDON: Like hell he can. Listen, I got a better suggestion. I put up the money, you make all the arrangements and we put him in one of those assisted living places. Heβll be surrounded by β
CHLOE: Are you nuts? A nursing home because you donβt want your life inconvenience
LANDON: I donβt see whatβs so badβ
CHLOE: It will kill him! He will hate it. You canβt always just throw money at every fucking problem. You are such a selfish jerk.
LANDON: And you are a mindless little idiot. Are you done now?
CHLOE: (feeling rather defeated and sighs) Will you at least come with me to reason with him. He wonβt listen to me but at least he will listen to you, his favorite child.
LANDON: Sure. I need to see when Iβm free. Maybe next week, I could pencil somethingβ
CHLOE: God damnit! Donβt you understand that the situation is urgent? He could be out on the street by the end of the week.
LANDON: Must you always be such a drama queen?
CHLOE: Ugh..there no use talking to you (Chloe mutters under breath, you just donβt fucking care)
LANDON: What did you say?
CHLOE: Nothing.
LANDON: Fine, Iβll go with you this Wednesday afternoon.
CHLOE: Okay.
CHLOE slams the door and sighs deeply.
Characters: RON- age 67
CHLOE-age 24
LANDON-age 36
Scene 1
Setting
Ronβs Apartment, there are piles of stuff everywhere, picture frames hanging on the wall. Ron is sitting on the couch chewing beef jerky watching the TV. There is a knock on the door. It is his daughter Chloe . Itβs about 3 PM and Ron is still in his pajamas. Ron, disgruntled, gets up to answer the door. Chloe is carrying a bunch of groceries in her hand.
RON:( opens door) Whadda ya want?
CHLOE: Oh geesh! Is that any way to greet your loving daughter ?
RON: Eh, you were interrupting me doing something important.
CHLOE: Sure, sure⦠now could you help me out wit one of of these bags before one of my arms falls off.
RON: (he takes one of the bags) Eh-I donβt know why you need to buy all of this stuff.
CHLOE: You mean your medicines, food, basic necessities for you to survive on. A basic ( CHLOE almost trips on a miscellaneous food wrapping) thank you would suffice. I told you to clean up some yesterday-you know the landlordβ
RON: Landlord, shmanlord, She always threatens the same crap. βI will throw you out if you donβt clean. All bark, no bite. The old biddy shouldnβt care about what I do in the comfort of my own home as long as I pay her rent.
CHLOE: (starts to sit down-removing several car magazines) I wouldnβt be so sure of this. You know she has handed management over to her son. Do you really need all of these issues of Car and Ride magazines?
RON: Bug off! Will you? Nobody asks you to come over!
CHLOE: Dad (CHLOE goes to RON to put her hand on RONβs shoulder) Itβs been over six months since mom died, perhaps-
RON shoos CHLOEβs hand away
RON: I donβt want to talk about it. It’s none of your damn business!
CHLOE: Iβm sorry, I didnβt mean toβ¦itβs justβ
RON: Nothing. You are worrying about nothing.
There is an awkward moment of silence as RON has his back to CHLOE. CHLOE is trying to come up with something to say.
CHLOE: I guess I should go (CHLOE starts to get up tentatively) I have another errand to run.
RON: Good. I wouldnβt want your old man getting in the way of you doing anything important.
CHLOE: God! I just wish you wouldnβt be soβ¦
RON: So what?
CHLOE: Nothing. Iβll leave you to your βimportantβ tv watching.
CHLOE skips swiftly to the door
CHLOE: Bye dad.
RON goes back to sitting on the couch with a blank look on his face and stares at the TV.
This was my response to prompt #30: The time of day you prefer

Sunday mornings make me jump out of bed
ready to seize the fuck out of the day
First my overpriced coffee while I blast out
music in my ears and tune the world out
Write, write, write whatever crazy thing
has been lingering in my mind
then I drive to the only place
where I can get fresh bread
I stand in a line full of the local hipsters
for my gluttonous must have
rush back home where I write
and plot more blog content for next month
will there be another playlist?
more angry poetry about an ex
who screwed me over?
or am I changing the narrative
and finally being honest about my recovery
Sunday mornings are always an opportunity
for my creativity to come out in full force
without judgment, without apologies