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poesía: dudas

here’s the english version that inspired this poem:

Poetry: The Difference

las dudas de mi capacidad como madre me llenaba con inseguridad
y me robaba mi sueño
Quizas debi ser mas madura, mas estable, mas exigente
todos tenían consejos y comentarios acerca de mí mil y uno errores
porque mis hijos eran como yo
marchando al ritmo de su propio tambor
pero después de 24 años de ser madre
solté las opiniones y juzgamientos de todos
yo se que he sido y sigo siendo una buena
porque aunque mis hijos no fueron criados en mansiones o con lujos
siempre tuvieron lo mejor de mi y eso siempre fue suficiente

Feb 2024

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poetry: too wild

I wrote this poem in March of 2023.

only tacos have an invitation to my heart…always and forever

On days like today, I feel too wild, too untamed
to be loved, to be handled by anyone
I feel like too much and I won’t find anyone who’s enough
and I wonder if I’ll really be alone forever
because right now that’s what my future looks like
and it’s not me trying to diss any potential love candidates
it’s me acknowledging how much of an earthquake,
a hurricane, a tsunami I can be
and even though I’ve done the work to tame my inner demons
It still feels like there is still so much work left to do
before I feel confident enough to invite anyone else into my chaos

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poetry: solitude

I wrote this poem in March of 2019.

honestly tho

Alone in my solitude
I am again-
trying to get through
My bout of crippling loneliness
When all I want to do is disappear-
and escape from the life I created
The picture perfect life
where everyone and everything
seems to fit in an perfect puzzle
It’s a imperfect perfection
That’s slowly killing me,
breaking parts of my sanity,
Parts of the real me-
where I understand
henrik Ibsen’s protagonists

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Last day of year 42.🥹🎉

It’s the end of Chapter 42 in my life story. While my life is far from ideal, I’m still grateful and feel incredibly blessed for this past year of growth. I think that two words that describe this year have been: community and bravery. I found community with friends, at open mic, online with other writers, and continue to strengthen my relationships with my sons. I also reconnected even more with my beautiful culture and homeland . I was brave this year in many ways, but I was very intentional about it. It was hard at times to do certain things and continue to find the willpower and determination to do them, but I did it. I’m not sure what chapter 43 has for me. I don’t have any big plans aside from writing my book and continuing to be my moody and creative Pisces self with an occasional ray of sunshine. It’s been a good year. 🥹🎉 #piscesseason #endof42 #birthdayweek https://www.instagram.com/reel/C3qBI13MkRN/?igsh=YWhxaWZjMHgycGJw