
Poem of the Day: Invitation



I wrote this poem in 2004 when I was depressed because I felt my husband pulling away from me.

I think sometimes
It is better to die
Than to live this big lie
We like to call life
I think sometimes
It is better to escape
Then face
Such an unfair fate
I think sometimes
It is better to have the earth eat you up
Than to have to hurt so much
Over treacherous love




I wrote this poem in 2004 when I was pregnant with my second child and mad at my boyfriend (future husband) for his lack of affection and attention to me. I was obviously very upset when I wrote this poem and instead of talking to him I wrote and bottled up my anger.

You refuse to see
All the hurt youβre causing me
With your indifferent ways
Itβs a miracle you havenβt yet gone astray
You refuse to see
Our son is paying the fee
He may still be in my belly
But the tears you cause me
Also affect him
You refuse to see
That one day soon youβll lose me
If you donβt stop
Being so fucking cold.



I wrote this poem in 2004 about my husband, then boyfriend. I guess I was mad about his lack of affection. As you can see, this is a pattern for me. I bottle my emotions up until one day I explode.

If you donβt want any of this
You should just leave
I canβt take anymore
Of your uncaring words
I donβt want to keep you from
Having your fun
So just go away
You only hurt me if you stay
Go back to the way you used to be
Alone, happy, and free
And take your precious independence
You prefer it to our relationship nonsense
So stop acting like you care
To us, it wouldnβt be fair
Adieu, adios, and goodbye
To our enormous love lie

EscribΓ este poema en 2004 cuando estaba embarazada con mi segundo hijo y enfadada con mi novio porque Γ©l no me daba un lugar en su vida.

Ya me canse de esperar
Que me des un sitio en tu vida
Ya me canse de esperar
Con tanta ansiedad
De tus ganas de actuar
Ya me canse de esperar
Que vengas a llevarme
Para empezar una vida juntos
Con mucho amor
Ya me canse de esperar
Que actΓΊes con verdad
Alguna vez

