I wrote this poem in 2006.

we short circuit once again
and back to our monotonous
everyday existence
passion once again becomes
an abstract thing of our past
and I wonder
if this is all there is to love
here’s the English version of this poem:
Poetry: Did I Ask For Your Advice?
los consejos y crΓticas de los otros
me hacΓan sentir como una fracasada
como que no estaba haciendo lo suficiente
para mejorarme
y cuando era una chava esto me volvΓa loca
pero ya que soy una seΓ±ora
me rio, tomo lo que ΓΊtil y rechazo lo demΓ‘s
y sigo con mi vida
I wrote this poem in August of 2023.

all of us have been or will be dumpster fires
it doesnβt matter who you are
man, woman or non binary
white, black or brown
with or without a mental health diagnosis
working class or upper class
at one point or another weβll all be toxic to another person
or to ourselves
some of us admit it and cringe
some of us will ignore it or blame someone else
all of us have been or will be dumpster fires
itβs a rite of passage
here’s the English version of this poem:
Poetry: Risen
la pared de hielo entre los dos se estΓ‘ derritiendo
me miras como si soy lo mejor que te ha pasado
poco a poco se enciende un fuego de las cenizas
de lo que alguna vez fuimos
I wrote this poem in August of 2023.

the outline of her body in the middle of the road-
told the most tragic of stories
she wasnβt looking when she crossed the street
she was lost in her thoughts
and the driver speeding didnβt see her
and splat went her body
death came quickly to her
her last thought was mission accomplished
but the world thought
another victim of an unexpected and tragic circumstance
here’s the English version of this poem:
Poetry: The Light
en un sueΓ±o lΓΊcido encuentro la esperanza
mi abuela me dice
βno te rindas, tu vida apenas estΓ‘ comenzandoβ
y de repente me despierto de la niebla
de la angustia existencial que he estado viviendo

Was today typical?

I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

this time when I plant my garden of love
it will be a solo project
filled with seeds of only me
Seeds of my grief, seeds of my joy
Seeds of my sadness, seeds on my anger
Seeds of inspiration and it will bloom
into flowers of self worth
trees of empowerment
and plants of self love
this time when I till my garden
I wonβt allow anyone to distract me
This time when I maintain my garden
Iβll water it with the essence of myself
I wrote this poem in July of 2022.

Iβm not just a lesson learned, Iβm a whole education
my mood swings will teach you patience and self-control
and things about bipolar and BPD you never wanted to learn
Making love to me will give you a degree in the best WAPP
youβll ever experience
And when you break my heart and leave
Youβll earn your PhD in what happens when you fuck over
A Peruvian woman whoβs crazy
I wrote this poem in July of 2020.

The Darkness comes back
with a fierce strength
and takes over my mind
I want to run
I want to hide
But most of all I want to die
The Darkness comes back
like a hurricane
and wrecks my body and mind
and I donβt want to work
and I donβt want to talk
and I donβt want to breathe
The Darkness comes back
and not even the promise of love
keeps it away
I wrote this poem in July of 2023.

I collect crushes like little boys collect pokemon cards
Iβm addicted to the potential of love
without doing anything about it
except to occasionally test their waters
Nonchalantly sliding into their DMs
And posting a thirst trap selfie
and celebrating with a love song
when one of them likes it
or comments on it
hoping one of them sees past my salty poetry
hoping one of them is brave enough
to ask me out for coffee
and wants to get to know the real me
I wrote this poem in July of 2020.

Chaotic and destructive thoughts
enter my mind
I want to die and feel the blood drain
from my body
I want to fuck
and feel pleasure
with a complete stranger
I want to yell at everyone
that makes me feel worthless
I want to sing all of the sad and depressing songs
of unrequited loves –
But most of all-
I want the dangerous nonsense in my head
to STOP!
I wrote this poem in July of 2023.

I hold my head up high now
no matter what happens
I will never allow anyone
to ever again dim or extinguish my light
I now understand the magic I hold within
and how it can be intimidating
to some people who canβt understand it
I wrote this poem in July of 2023.

The romantic in me riots and protests and says
this solitary confinement is bullshit
Itβs been over a year since weβve been intimate
with anyone
or felt a romantic connection
and I try to reason with her
βWeβre still healing
and we like to stay emotionally regulated
and healthyβ
and she yells, βno itβs time to take all
of our therapy skills out for test drive
and find someone we vibe withβ
And I answer, βbut weβre notβ
And she screams, βstop with your excuses
go find the next muse of our poetry”