PoesΓ­a: Imbecil Racista

For the English version of this poem, click on the link below:

https://lifeonthebpd.com/2021/10/20/poem-racist-jerk/

AsΓ­ es cuando las mΓ‘scaras se caen

Querido, lo que dijiste
me partiΓ³ el alma
nunca pensΓ© que eras un racista
no se si te pueda perdonar
quedarme contigo matarΓ­a mi alma
Lamento haberte conocido
Y me duele decirte
Tenemos que terminar
Nuestro cuento de amor
Te deseo lo mejor
OjalΓ‘ que algΓΊn dΓ­a
Dejas tus prejuicios atrΓ‘s

Poetry: The Light

I wrote this in 2006 about my husband, then boyfriend. I tend to put a lot of my worth in the person I’m romantically involved with. This is another BPD trait.

me in 2006 with my middle child

Rising from darkness I struggle to find 

       the light in the oblivion

 that has become my life. 

The light is bright with love without conditions . 

The light tells me I’m good enough. 

The light is you. 

PoesΓ­a: Traicionada

For the English version of this poem, click on the link below.

https://lifeonthebpd.com/2021/11/20/betrayed/

la traiciΓ³n duele

Convertiste el amor bonito que tenΓ­amos
en una pesadilla de traiciones y mentiras
Estabas enamorado de ella
todo el tiempo que estuvimos juntos
y ahora me voy para siempre
porque merezco mejor
que gastar mi energΓ­a en un traidor

Poetry: Dying Innocence

I wrote this is 2006 in for my creative writing class. I wrote thinking about my sexuality when I was a teenager. I was hypersexual from a young age.

me in 2006-around the time I wrote this poem

She was an adult like sixteen years old
Hormones racing like the speed of light
These were bitter enemies of the cold
Powerful sensations she had to fight
Had the body of a mature woman
But the maturity of one she lacked
But still she chose a stranger man
He told her quickly β€œLie on your back.”
She was swiftly incapacitated
Gone forever, her norms and behavior
As her callow body palpitated
With her lengthy new found pleasure
And this was the unforeseen joyous end
Of her already dying innocence

PoesΓ­a: Desgraciado

For the English version of this poem,click on the link below:

https://lifeonthebpd.com/2021/11/13/poetry-pathetic-asshole/

siempre una lecciΓ³n

Tengo que decirte
eres un desgraciado
no supiste respetarme
Arrepiento haberte conocido
pensaba que eras mi amigo
pero ahora veo que eres mi enemigo
No quiero verte nunca mas
fuiste una desgracia mΓ‘s en mi vida
Te deseo muchos aΓ±os de miseria
Por llenarme de agonΓ­a