I wrote this poem in March of 2025.

weβre in our saorsa era, redemptive and honest
a complete 180 turn to who we were before
a story I like so much better than our last one
always said I was a much better friend
and girlfriend
I wrote this poem in March of 2022.

I shouldnβt wish death upon anyone
but I wish death upon you
the minute your child posted about your open heart surgery
and immediately , it makes sense,
a man with a weak mind has an even weaker heart
I shouldnβt wish death upon anyone
but I wish death upon you
couldnβt you die on the operating table?
you never deserved your life with your beautiful children
you-who made me carry the burden of shame and guilt
for years and years
I shouldnβt wish death upon anyone but I wish death upon you
you-who desecrated my morality and ethics through
your domestic authority
I shouldnβt wish death upon anyone but I wish death upon you
because someone like doesnβt deserve to breathe
the same breath of real human beings
escribΓ este poema en marzo del 2022.

Calladita calladita me quedo siempre
para no molestar a mami que viene cansada segundo trabajo
soy una chica que me trago mis palabras
acerca del chico que me pellizcΓ³ el trasero
aunque me siento sucia
no quiero que mami piense que
hice algo malo para que me falten el respeto
soy una seΓ±orita de una buena familia
calladita calladita escondo mis libras de mΓ‘s
bajo los Blue Jeans anchos de mi hermano
ni siquiera le mencionΓ³ a mi madre que hace meses
no me baja la regla
I wrote this poem in March of 2025.

in total darkness I fell for a while
for a year I didnβt listen to music
For a year I donβt remember being a mom
and while I still function and went to work
Several years later
I realize how I had forgotten all about
the darkness I had fallen in a while ago
my mind blocked it in an attempt to move on
in an attempt to heal
I wrote this poem in March of 2021.

I donβt want to but have to be the boss
the boss of my family
the boss in my relationships
the boss of my life
it sucks to take charge and dominate all of the spaces
it sucks to have so many responsibilities thrust upon me
it sucks to always have to shrink myself for egos
it sucks to never be in a space where for once
I can be soft
I wrote this poem in March of 2021.

feeling my otherness feels like a full time job
not belonging to here or there
constantly in limbo wondering βwhere is my home?
they hate me here, they hate me there
I don’t belong anywhere but I remain here
it’s the only home I’ve ever known
America
home of the free, home of the brave
but never my HOME!
I wrote this poem in March of 2025.

flickering ashes, among them, the brideβs dress
dreams of a family
dreams of a white picket fence all went up in smoke
jilted and pregnant
bride cries on the floor, waiting for the sentencing
from her parents
now that her lover jilted her
and couldnβt make an honest woman out of her
I wrote this poem in February of 2023.

Iβm soldier of love
too lost battles for me to count and recount
how many times Iβve had to stitch my heart over and over again
from the many knives past lovers have stabbed me with
with the last one, I almost lost all hope for love
It made me lose my sanity and almost gave me PTSD
Still the romantic in me refused to die
and resurfaced this year
Told me, βthis time it will be different, this time you have self respect
and youβll be choosy over whoβs worthy of your love energyβ