so comfortable I take pics like these….it’s me and my thigh high boots against the world..lol
Finally comfortable in my skin I’m no longer afraid to show off my majestic beauty my curves comes one of the seven wonders of the world and my face is a mosaic of my colonizer and indigenous ancestry and now I grace the world with my beauty posting endless selfies in various poses some people may find it narcissistic but if you possessed my goddess beauty would you try to hide it?
this bitch has had more transformations than she cares to remember
My story is important to share, it’s important to write down but I don’t want to do it from a place of anger, revenge, or ego It’s strange to say this because for the past 5 years Anger has been my major inspiration and motivation to feed the narrative of how everyone has been a villain and I’ve been a victim It gave me a sense of martyrdom that allowed me to find peace for a while acting like everyone is a problem While I just flounder around being wronged And while I have so much compassion and love for this version of me It’s not who I want to continue to be It’s not how I want to be perceived because I’m more than being angry and vindictive I’m also kindness, goodness, empathy, and love And when I share my story-I need to remember these things
When I tell you I’m a poet- please take me seriously don’t think I’m some cute girl who writes a few verses in her room about how your kiss is a new kind of heaven Poetry for me has a much deeper meaning, poetry is how I bleed out all of my emotions I hold within
When I tell you I’m a poet- please don’t laugh at me or mock me don’t berate the simplicity of my words I weave into verse It’s how I make sense of my explosion of thoughts It’s how I express what I can’t say out loud
When I tell you I’m a poet- don’t try to cure me of my poetic nature and prey on my insecurities and try to kill my dreams of making my art seen I know how the odds are stacked against someone like me I don’t do it to make it to the mainstream- I do it so other women like me can be seen, can be inspired to dream
And finally when I tell you I’m a poet- Appreciate the artist in me, make yourself a sanctuary to put my poetry in- I’m not asking for endless compliments or an ego boost I’m asking for a safe space in you to love the poet I hold within
the sexual tension between me and ghosting everyone is insane
we lie to ourselves continuously about our needs to save face, to avoid conquering our fears to not feel insecure we’ll tell ourselves we are better off alone and independent when in reality as humans we are meant to be social we are meant to share ourselves with others but it’s cooler to say, “I’m good with my solitude, I’m my own best friend” because deep down inside we don’t want to get hurt again
Trapped in this self made prison- Trapped in what I thought was the American Dream /but in reality is the immigrant nightmare Trapped in my mom’s life Trapped under a heavy blanket of strength I continue to cloak myself in Trapped in a suburban hell of family and responsibilities Trapped because I wasn’t patient enough, wasn’t independent enough to build the life I truly wanted And instead settled for a mediocre one Trapped because of my fear of being lonely a fear that has chained me to a heavy present without any hope for the future
One was born in the beginning of the 20th century the other was born in the beginning of the 21st century one was born out of unplanned wedlock one was a planned product of his parent’s love one was taught hatred for blacks and cholos the other was taught blacks lives matter and equality for everyone one had misogynistic tendencies thanks to his machismo culture the other other is that gender roles and conventions are a joke One went through the Spanish flu times the other is going through Covid times both shares similar genes generations apart both share the same Spanish name one could not been possible without the other