I wrote this poem in October of 2019.
There were parts of myself
I forgot when I was with you
I forgot my self worth
I forgot my dignity
I forgot my self confidence
I made the mistake
of placing my worth and happiness
in your unsure hands
I made the mistake
of giving you my heart
I made the mistake
of not knowing when to walk away
I made the mistake
in believing you would change
I made the mistake
of wasting my time and love
on you
I wrote this poem in October of 2024.
Well, hello October
September came and went with a vengeance
and now I’m here about to make another transition
Waiting for another rebirth
trying to manifest a lover with dark hair and good intentions
because I’m done with them blue eyed colonizer devils
Well, hello October
I’ll try to manage my expectations for the soon
to be solar eclipse energy
for once, I just want to focus on me, me, me
and not get hung up on past love stories
instead I’ll try my best to find inspiration in the present
Where I’m planting and plotting many things
Well, hello October
please be kind to me
don’t disappoint me
I wrote this poem in October of 2019.
A blanket of anger and sadness
envelops me
as you dispose of me
once again
I hope this time I learn for good
that you only carry
destruction and devastation
within you
and that you will never love
or care for me
and that you’re a self absorbed
piece of shit
A blanket of anger and sadness
envelops me
And I hate you
but I hate myself even more
for wasting my time and love
on someone who never
deserved it
for trying to see love
and affection that was never there
for falling in love
with a charismatic coward
Life on the BPD 