I wrote this in July of 2019 about “C” and it was inspired by the crazy and intense chemistry me and him share. For a long time, I had convinced myself that it was love but it really wasn’t. It’s more like before him and even after, I’ve never met anyone that’s ever matched my sexual energy like he does.

Lust is temporary happiness
Disguised as love
The adrenaline rushes to your brain
And make you thinks it’s the real deal
So you trap yourself
In a dream that you don’t want
To wake up from
You delude yourself into thinking
This is love
You delude yourself into thinking
He’s the one
Who’ll fill up your days and nights
All because he can push certain pleasure buttons
In your body that makes you
Explode in happiness
Lust oh lust is beautiful, terrible,
And deceitful thing